Under construction...

I'll be working on a new layout and hopefully a header(if I can figure out how to make one that looks halfway decent.)

Then I will redo my blog roll.

It might take some time but I'll get it fixed.
In the meantime it also allows me to get my head straight.

I wanted to write something fun this morning but my heart's not in it.
I feel like my escape has been compromised.

Yes, I am crude on here and rude and I make sexual innuendos. But it's all in fun. I exaggerate a little about running through my back yard in the nude all the time, but it's meant to be silly.

Fun...that's all this blog has ever been about for me.

I get up in the morning and I look for some humor in my life...in this world.
I don't want to stress over the economy or politics or the senseless killing.
I want to escape all of that and laugh. How much laughter is there in this world anymore?
You turn on the tv and it's reality shows revolving around drama and back biting. It's almost as depressing as the news.

And of course when one has been though some very traumatic things, regaining that carefree and fun attitude takes a lot of hard work.
Those pesky demons are relentless.

I've been through a lot in my life.
I CHOOSE not to re-live it and believe me, I have to work at it.
Once was enough for me, thank you very much.
When you've been in a shit pile, it's enough of a struggle to get rid of the scent of it that lingers in your nostrils once you've escaped.

So I focus on the fun, the unusual and try to maintain a positive outlook on things.

This is the place for me to do that.
And it's tough for me to feel safe doing that today.

I don't think when I write...I just do it and it takes me away to a place where I can be silly and stupid and laugh.
While it may seem egotistical, I come back to my blog when I'm down and laugh at my stupidity.

It might not make sense to anyone else but it makes sense to me. And it helps ME through some pretty rough patches.

So I'm not writing anything today that will make me laugh or anyone else.
I'm going to duck and cover instead,but I'll be busy working on the layout.

I need to reclaim my escape and I think a fresh start on the layout and stuff will help.

I'll be back soon.